gutsyfrog asked:

I'm kind of torn about your NSFW comics. On one hand, I really enjoy them. On the other hand, I'd like to see more than just thin, cisgender people portrayed.

Drawing thin people is actually pretty frustrating for me.  I kept on trying to plump up Dorothy, but, no, she’s thin.  I just wanna draw some fat folds, dammit!   It would have been half the fun of doing Amber/Mike instead of Leslie/Robin, but I was in a romantic instead of angry mood when I chose which of those to draw, so we got the happy couple instead of the hatefuckers.

Publicly drawing sex is this new arena for me, and I knew going in that who I’d be drawing would be seen as a statement, and it’s part of why I hesitated.  I try to represent different kinds of people as much as I can in my non-porn stories, and I would be expected to do that with my porn-porn as well.  But at the same time, I’m kind of scared out of my mind doing this stuff, and so I was really thankful that Dorothy and Walky were the pair I first had the opportunity to depict.  I mean, sex to me is this very emotionally and physically intimate thing that I have only ever done with one other person in my entire life, and so I was relieved that Walky/Dorothy aren’t far from what I know.  Less opportunity to embarrass myself with ignorance.  It’s fucking scary.  I threw up like three times the day that story went live, and yet I could still vouch for whatever happened in it as a Thing That Can Happen When Two Straight Cis People Do It.  It was safe material, but I really needed that safe material as my first step.  

I am a wreck.  I seriously did not ever grasp my dick until I was nineteen because I was afraid my dead grandmother was watching me.  I mean, I still looked at porn whenever possible, but I wouldn’t touch myself, because that was more evil that I was willing to be.  And, then, you know, after somehow reaching satisfaction without ever having touched anything, I would then listen to contemporary Christian rock on repeat until I cried myself to sleep.  I will repeat this: I am a wreck.  

I promise that I will get more outside my personal comfort zone as I gain experience in this, but I also hope that everyone takes to heart that I am also a messed-up human being who, while definitely wanting to please all kinds of people and not wanting to make anyone feel excluded, is also trying to unpack his several decades of debilitating sexual issues without having more than a handful of anxiety attacks per hour.  I need these baby steps.  Translated: I will be drawing a lot of cis people in the meantime.

I thank everyone for their patience.